So, this morning I woke up from a particularly super steamy dream about a Marine to discover that it is Fleet Week. For those of you as unfamiliar with Fleet Week as I was, it basically boils down to thousands of Navy & Marine soldiers running around New York for a week. (Basically "On the Town" starting Gene Kelly & Frank Sinatra.) This made me want to immediately ditch work & head to NYC to lure unsuspecting Marines to my den of sin. But since I'm responsible (read: lame), I went to work & daydreamed about Marines in Dress Whites with Colgate smiles. I envy every woman in NYC right now. Marines: you always have a place in my arms. Oorah!
"New York! New York!
It's a hell of a town!"
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I'm ready to escape my job. Like ASAP! It's just boiling down to alot of BS, lies, & all around aggravation. The employees aren't happy, so they don't want to be productive. Frankly, I can't blame them since I've been feeling the same but for longer. I've been tossing out resumes & going on interviews but everything is running into either dead ends or spam emails. I want to say I'm feeling frustrated with the search but really I'm not. This whole situation is just forcing me to look into working for myself. I really hate the idea of having to trudge to work & work at a job where I'm not happy nor comfortable there. I just feel this is all just rushing forward into a whole new ballgame for me. Working on the business plan and have made an appointment with an accountant to go over the financial projections for startup & running costs. A favorite co-worker of mine chatted with me today & reminded me to work patiently. My usual M.O. is plot & pounce. I spend maybe about 1-2 months on an idea & then try to execute it which ends in me losing interest immediately. My new goal is to learn patience. After all, patience is a virtue...
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Where am I running to? That is the question I keep asking myself. As I make my way through life, I realize I have no direction. All of my close friends have jobs in the field they went to school for. They are happy with those jobs & look forward to going to them everyday. I, on the other hand, has never finished college, hates my job, & play the "what do I want to be when I grow up" game frequently. I have 9 months worth of fashion merch schooling, a certification in wedding planning, & a ton if on the job experience on how to run 2 types of retail stores. My most reasonable option it seems is to be an entrepreneur. But I don't want to just jump into anything. I would like for it to be something I care about & want to succeed in. Maybe I should chase the wedding planner dream. It would be hard at first but I find that the most comfortable fit. While I would love to chase the photographer theme, that can only remain a very cherished hobby. (I refuse to sully it with my fickleness & failure.) So, I will attempt to chase the planner dream & see what becomes of it. I just want to feel as if I found my calling instead of slogging through jobs & things that I do just to get by. This Gemini is tired of riding the winds. Time to find some stable ground & build a steady nest.