Writing & Music

Writing has always been (and always will be) a special thing for me. It's been there when I was at my lowest and when I've been at my peak. It has always been tied with music & I can honestly say that I've never written without music in the background. They've gone hand in hand: a perfect marriage. Writing & music have been my sole solace in a world that quickly has been crumbling down around my ears. Without them, I wouldn't have a reason for breathing.


---I do what I want

Peaceful

Lately I've been very peaceful. Despite outside stresses, I've been remarkably calm. My core has become an oasis for me and appreciate it. The more I put my life in order, the more peace I receive. I know this sounds like common sense to many but for me, it's a new discovery. Before, I just heard that & didn't believe it worked. Now, seeing it in action and reaping the rewards is putting it in a new light for me. My life is ever evolving.

Rant

(This a rant. If I don't get this out, I'm going to blow a gasket. You've been warned.)

I feel like I'm going crazy. I have way too many bills and not enough money coming in. While I hate my day job, it is the only thing keeping me from poverty. Yes I live at home at the moment but if I lost my job, I would spiral down into debt that would take me 15 years to dig out of & repair. While everything is looking bleak, I am trying to hold on for as long as I can. The end is far from near and I am not as done & out as I assumed. I can make it through this if I just hold the line.

Last Action Hero

So for the last 2 weeks, I've been exercising more than ever. It's mainly push ups and treadmill work. After I while I realized, I was only focusing on upper body strength and running. It occurred to me that I was getting in shape for a zombie invasion/Apocalypse. I was working on running faster than everyone else & being able to boost myself up and over stuff. And apparently I'm not the only person doing this. I remembered a trip a friend took me on to the Catskills & we were discussing him stockpiling his medicine & his escape plan to the mountains. Then later that night, I was watching a Patton Oswalt special and he said the same thing about going off his meds to survive the collapse of society. Everyone is preparing for some type of crisis and I'm just glad to be on board. Now for me to go stockpile food, water, & batteries.