Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Wants vs Needs

I did some serious soul searching and thinking and came to the conclusion about the SITUATION: I cannot marry/be with him. I sat & discussed with close friends and it just doesn't seem like a good idea. While I may WANT to be with him, my heart can't take our whirlwind relationship. We laugh, we cry, we argue, we hurt each other. I know that's how relationships are supposed to work. The thing is when you're the only one crying/arguing/pleading, it gets real old real quick. I love him without question. I probably always will love him. It's time to put him away in the past and let him stay there. Should we meet again in the future and work out our problems for good, I'd be with him without a doubt. Seeing as he hasn't changed and I've changed too much, I sincerely doubt us.

I've told him about my decision to take him out my love life. His response: "Damn your determination makes me want you more." How am I supposed to move on when that's the same cockiness that got me?! The best I can do is ignore him and take the time to take care of me.

Friday, October 22, 2010


So at the beginning of this month, I started a Tumblr account for a 365-photo experiment. I'll be the 1st to say, I've never really been comfortable with myself. I've just made peace with my nose and Goddess knows I love/hate my shape. By participating in this, I've decided this will be my way to come to terms with myself. I may not be model-material but I'm damned cute with great eyes and lips. So, the account is basically a letter to me reminding myself that I'm a beautiful person. It may sound a bit vain but frankly we all need a self-esteem boost every once in a while. Tumblr: 365 Corsette

Monday, October 4, 2010

Always something...

I swear if it's not one thing, it's a damn other. I had a car accident back in March that wrecked the back of my car from reversing out of my driveway. I was almost side-swiped this morning again reversing out. So I reversed up my driveway this evening so my nose could be facing out when I left in the morning. Turns out, that's not the smart thing to do when you're tired & sick. I managed to tear my passenger side mirror off on my fence. So now my car is even worse off than before. FML.