Ball of Confusion

Well, lately I have been actively trying to date. I've been willingly flirting with strangers and answering texts from flirts. I know basically what I want but I really don't want to pursue it. I would love to be in a stable relationship but I don't want to give up my illusion of freedom. I like the option of traveling at a moment's notice and not have to pander to a significant other on why I want to travel alone. On the other hand, I crave having that person love you and supporting you. It's a beautiful feeling but it's very blinding all in one. Maybe I'm being a chickenshit. Or maybe I'm being reasonably cautious. Who knows?


---I do what I want


---I do what I want